I have PANIC ATTACKS.
Everything is cool, la de da day... then
Im having a heat attack and Im gonna die NOW!!!!!
This is it! Its OVER - Death is here NOW.
What happens next?
What is death gonna feel like?
Will it hurt?
I am about to cross through the veil.
Im not done yet!
There is so much more I want to do!
This can't be all there is to life.
Im not DONE YET!!!
Shit, I havent taken a shower,
my hair is a mess.
Am I wearing clean underwear?
Who will find my body?
Please, not my kids, Please
loss of fine motor skills
Primitive Fight or Flight response.
And nobody can do anything to stop it.
I am alone.
Twenty minutes later, it is over.
I am alive.
Wise to the truth,
of the Grim Reapers fingers,
groping at my heart.
Wondering when he will strike again.